too many thoughts... can't sleep
~~~watched the notebook today but i wasn't able to finish it. kinda got bored watching cause i didn't feel like it..
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over dinner, my parents, my brother, and i discussed our plans of moving out of the country. my father went to my mom's agency to ask the people there about our papers.. cause he'll be leaving this august for the states kasi may reunion cya with his classmates. so the guy in the agency told my father that it's ok to leave pa. kasi more or less sa september massched interview namin.
now i really really regret getting in to management because i might take up nursing there anyway. and i should have not enrolled for this year cause i might leave naman before the semester ends kc ill be busy na fixing our papers, planning things, going somewhere, going to my dentist, facial... ek-ek hay naku.. i really should have stopped studying na haha para di na hassle ffile pa ng leave of absence...
i should've taken up nursing! hahaha or better yet, shifted to another course, an easy one at that. but too late..
i wanna leave now.. im determined.. it's my final decision:) and i think ill be better off there. and u'll never know, i might find the girl i've looking for my whole life there. i might build my family there. have a lovely house. children playing outside.
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i wanna build my family there and it would be better din for them, for their future din... id have a daughter as the eldest, followed by 2 boys, then a baby girl hehehe awww sarap magdream haha but i know mangyayari to..
and if im goin to retire na, i might come back here. and die here:)
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i just found out something and it kinda disappointed me and broke my heart. really.
kinda mixed emotion, a certain happiness because i can finally go on and i know my life's goin to be better. and also sadness because i never knew. i trusted
arrrgh i dunno how to react because i have no right. i don't. i havent told this to anyone except for my 2 friends online haha:) i just need to get it out of me once and for all
im just angry... most especially at myself..
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